Problem??

One problem after another, it's very tiring. Why do people argue? Why do people get annoyed? Why do people get mad? It's all come to your own mindset. Love what you do and finally everything will be good in the end. But some people don't realise this. Greed and selfishness are the caused of this.

One day argue, one day good, another day argue and another day ok. I don't know what is going on. It's like playing a game. But you don't realise that my heart (I don't know about yours) is not a toy. It has feelings. My heart is not made of steel that can endure everything, all the pain and annoyance.  I'm not a soft toy which you cuddle when your mood is good and kick away when your mood is bad.

Your annoyance and anger towards me has nothing to do with me. I believe I don't do anything wrong to make you feel that way. It's within you yourself. Plus, I don't wake up to please everyone everyday, I don't even wake up to please my family everyday. Also, I hate it to have to feel like shit everyday for nothing but your doings.

Agreement has been made. Monday to Wednesday are the days that we spend time together no matter what  we do and you know clearly about it. If you are not happy about it then be it. You just have to make do with whatever you have. You can't have what you want all the time. You wanting to spend time with your friends is not my problem. Why do you even comparing the time we spend together and the time you spend with your friends? These are two totally different things. You can make our time together good if you want to, you can enjoy all the time that we have together if you focus on us. How can you focus on us while you are always busy on the chat with your friends?

We also agree the working days are the time you spend with your friends, then I can't interrupt as well if you prefer to go out during your free time on those days. I stick to our agreement to give you some space as well. I respect your needs as well.  I respect the time you want to spend with your friends, although I'm not happy that you spend time with girls, you also won't listen to me as your girlfriend then I can't do much about it as well.

I've been giving in so much since we are here. You want to spend time with your friends, go. You want to go out drinking, go. You want to have dinner with your friends, go. You want to wake up early for breakfast, go. Now you want to go out with all girls, I also can't have a say. You want to chat with girls all the time, I can't have a say as well. If I say even a single word, you turn into a beast.

Do you think it's all fair to me? You are the one that keep talking about being fair, mature and everything and look at it now. When I ask you out to do something or even just to have dinner outside, you refuse with the reason to save money, but whenever your friends ask you out, you never objected at all without thinking of the cost. Even when your friends ask you out for coffee or a drink, you will fly there asap if possible, and when I ask you out to do the same thing, you tell me you prefer to stay home and lazying around. Then after all this, you start complaining how bored it is to spend time with me doing nothing, I'm not fun at all, not like your friends who like to do a lot of things. I never did anything wrong, and yet I'm the one that is to be blamed for your boredom. Then you start to get annoyed and prefer to go out with your friends and show your unhappy face like you are forced to spend our time together. It's all within yourself, don't blame it on me.

I don't know what kind of relationship you are actually after. But if you are after a relationship where you can do whatever you want and let you have your own ways and only want to have your own views on things, I don't think I can last long here. This is not the sort of relationship that I'm looking for. I'm looking for a mature relationship where we have our time together and yet we have our own space to do our own things. I'm looking for someone who can compromise things, who try to understand me as much as I understand him. I don't want a relationship that always argue every single day for stupid reasons. I want the relationship where we respect each other and not hurt each other feelings. What's the point of being together if you argue or feel annoyed and being unhappy every single day? Being in a relationship is to enjoy each other's company and to feel happy, comfortable and loved.

I'm not your donkey which you can push all your anger and annoyance to. I'm your girlfriend, the person you choose to be by your side, the person you choose to be your main support and partner. I'm not the person to be treated like shit all the time. You have been giving me tons of shit and I don't say anything and love you as who you are and stay still. Try to drop just an ounce of shit to your fun friends and see if they are still going to be our friends, try and see what happen when everyone start to leave you because of your shit. Trust me, you can count with your fingers how many of them choose to stay and be your friends still after seeing your true colours. Appreciate what you have before you lose it. I'm not afraid to leave if you don't treat me right....